I had to blog again so that the videos can be seen.
YES.

I have no idea what to do about you.
Because i'm happy being alone.
And you should know how much i hate it when people try to talk to me on your behalf.
Yes, they maybe right.
Why is it so difficult to give you one last chance ?
I really don't wish to be with you again.
Things have changed, you have changed and i've changed too.
Everyone claimed that you have changed for the better, your attitude has changed for the better.
But i don't feel the same way they do.
Whenever you pissed me off, i'll get really angry and i'll think that you haven't change.
You may have changed, but i don't feel it. It's because we still do quarrel even when we are not together.
And i feel damn agitated and annoyed over the quarrels cos i feel that we shouldn't even be quarreling at all.
You know how much i hate you for your stupid attitude. The way you look when you are pissed off, the way you talk and everything !
Like the whole world owes you something.
I have my flaws, i know that.
I'm stubborn, very stubborn.
And many other flaws.

Yes, i always think i'm right.
But you guys don't know what's in my mind.
And i don't know how to put it into words.
Like, your jealousy is a killer please.
I always feel that i have the freedom to do whatever i want since i'm not with you.
But you are giving me the feeling of, "you can't dance with other guys, go out with other guys or whatever" Yes. THAT FEELING.
It seems like i'm still tied down by you.
And when i'm out with you, you tend to talk about my guy friends in sarcasm.
You should know what i'm trying to say here.
Its really annoying if you didn't know.
I don't do that even when i'm jealous over the girls around you right ?

My feelings for you are still there, yes i don't deny about it.
But it's fading so much that sometimes i feel that i don't love you anymore.
It's like each time you annoy me, my feelings fade.
At that moment, i'll hate you more than i love you.

You get what i'm trying to say ?
I hope you do.
Sigh.