Ripped off from Hazel's blog, i think it's fucking true.

"I cant tell anymore who is true and who is just playing you ard. lets just say your friends will only come to you when they need something other than that you are just someone else.i know deep down in my heart i know who is real and whom i can call my best friend/good friends. wait.is there even such a meaning to these?? im doubting it right now. in fact there's only a few whom i can trust. its not that im being betrayed or smtg. just that ppl ard me just change. and i dont think i wanna know the reason why. or maybe they are just like that in nature. its very difficult to please ppl ard u. true? yes very true. its like u just want to get into everybody's good books so as not to let them down or so that they can just be happy ard u.i can say that there's alot of friends around me. different set of friends but that doesnt mean that they are all my best friends or good friends. all of them have different kinds of attitude and different ways of reacting to certain things. and from this way, i learn from them and i accept the way they are.i meet ppl from different walks of life and im very sure that im learning something new every single day.

my point is, having different set of friends tend to make you abandon the other few set of friends. and others think that u are leaving them for good. they think that you have forgotten them and so on. but the fact is things just happen. its like if ure in the same sch, u tend to have more time with your sch mates and classmates. when weekend comes, you just wanna stay home and finish all ur sch projects. boyfriend will always be there. he makes time for you. he will manage his time to suit yours.how about your other friends? this is when bitching comes in. true? yes? accusations starts to come in. complaints start to flood. is this friendship at all?i dont really meet kin and fiq that much. say i will only get to meet em like every 2 or 3 mths but tt connection is still there. the bond is still strong. humble as ever. how abt ab? its been a year but we are still so comfy as ever. so many things to talk abt. laugh abt but there's never a weird feeling at all. nothing at all instead a very very happy feeling. but now i see aaron and fiq ard sch, there's still the nice and same old feeling. seems like these are the ppl youve been with for years.

i just need to throw everything out. i thought everything's gonna be ok when one returns but after awhile,another one is out again.. its like you are simply forgotten when you've been there all along, hoping that a good friendship will work out. its not really easy when everybody expects you to be there but cant be there at one time cos you just need to be at some other place. its not easy..one calls you.. u turn them down. then say yes to the others or u say no to everybody and just stay home spend some time with yourself and sch projects. or just spend time with the most important person who is the most precious one in your life at this very moment. if saying no to everyone will make you lose most of them..i dont know what to say...i dont really expect much now from ppl and i dont think i would want to.friends are just friends. and that's it. that's the real fact. true friends are hard to come by."