Heart Wrenching


It's a Friday today, and everyone goes TGIF !
As for me, nooo i didn't thank god for today.
Certainly not.
We had an insignificant arguement which led to our breakup earlier on in the late noon.
Although it was insignificant, but the issue's been on my mind for a long time.
Perhaps i just cared too much bout you and us, our future.
It was very difficult for me after we hung up the phone.
I practically broke down.
Every time someone mentioned you, i broke down again no matter how hard i tried to hold myself back.
I hid in the toilet, in my room and i couldn't control myself.
It was heart breaking.

I can't do it anymore.
I'm having too much pressure/stress given by myself and i simply just can't stop it. It's adding on everyday.

Never in my life, i felt so much pain in my heart.
It was throbbing so hard.
My mind went blank and everything fell apart.

As i cabbed to Zouk, a friend who was on the phone asked what happened b/w us and the tears flowed automatically. Even the cab uncle had to console me and gave me 20 cents discount.

And now, as i'm trying to sleep, i've decided to let out my feelings in this space, not hoping to reveal my weaknesses or gain any sympathy. I just need to vent. Because i didn't have any fun in Zouk earlier on at all. Half the time i was stoning, looking around for nothing, upset bout losing you as my partner. I was sucha party booper, so sorry guys. I just needed to get outta my house.

I see the sun out already, i better try to catch some sleep before the mother comes stomping into my room.

Goodnight to you, sweetheart.


P.S: Have you ever cried so hard in bed, having your nose filled fully with mucus that you can't breathe ?