Monday, July 19, 2010

Now You're Gone


I still can't accept the fact that you left, leaving me behind in this cruel world.
It wasn't easy coming this far with you as there were many underlying issues which we had.
But when things were working so well for us, you were taken away from me, just like that.
No last words, nothing.
I wished i didn't go to Shenzhen so i could spend more time with you.
I wished i didn't fall asleep at home that night.
I miss everything bout you.
Your scent.
Your smiles.
Your jokes.
Our heart to heart talks.
The times we had.
Those were the best moments i ever had.
Wolf, you never fail to make me smile everytime i see you.
Despite of hearing more bout you, my thoughts of you will never be swayed. You will always be that loving and best wolf in my heart, no one can replace you.

See my post on June 25 ?
You said you are around to do just that - to make me happy.
Come back please, i need you Jack.
There are so many things which we haven't done together and we were suppose to do it after my Shenzhen trip.
Your departure was too sudden for all of us.
I know you tried to stay on for us in the hospital and you tried to protect me.
I hate myself for not being able to get out of the bed in A&E to see you.
I would have been able to hear you speak for the last time.
Really wish i was stronger to over come the pain at that moment.
But it's all too late now.

I miss you so much, Jack.
You have never left my mind.

Every day i wake up thinking this is just a nightmare, but when reality hits me, it kills me.

All i'm asking for now is you to be happy and carefree in heaven, forgetting all your worries and keep that smile on your face !
And of cos, do appear in my dreams when ure free. (:


Baby, please remember that you'll always be a part of me.
I love you sweetheart, i'm sure you know that right ?

Rest in peace my love.

2 comments:

the truth hurts said...
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the truth hurts said...

stay strong